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Class Montage at Batch Dinner (our ppt montage owns all) All these are the history of 4L of HwaChong Institution, 2007
It is higher chinese today, and it is really the last day of school today. Many of you will think that i am going to emo again, but NO. The day has been ended by this strange joyous mood where msot of us celebrated the end of exams through LAN and pool, including me. Well, as the last day of school holds very significant meaning, i will just act emo, rmb, ACT only!
2007 has been a very enriching year for me, full of ups and downs (and lefts and rights), basically, full of emo moments...
Here, i would like to thank:
BiMeng, for your mugging spirit
Ruiyi, for being CHANG
Chingto, for posing in class
Libo, for your IT assistance in AVA, pday and class montages
Zhenrui, for teaching me the meaning of "You have come a long way"
Darrell, for your constant hushings for silence in class
Douglas, for being a Sportade fan
Eehong, for being my engaging and caring HP seating partner for 2 years
Yangxuan, for your geniune concerns for the class
Huchao, for letting us know that he has 9 girlfriends
Jevon, for doing all the sai-gang jobs being the class treasurer
Melvin, for your wash board abs
Zhenyang, for providing us with the real taste of terrorism
Weize, for sacrificing your own image to become the Boss by shaving bald
Zhuoyan, for your tiny little eyes
Ruizi, for sensationalising HAO and DONG
Lincoln, for teaching us the importance of theasurus
Qingyang, for teaching us the importance of sleeping early
Jeremy, for being MAIII
Andrew, for entertaining us with your DS everyday
Jiahua, for being SHEN
Dayan, for your VOLUME 10 and enlightening us that quality is better than quantity
Tag, for enlightening me on certain issues
Joshua, for your sometimes-funny-but-sometimes-not-funny-acts
Tonghang, for tolerating the title of "PRC"
Zijie, for helping the class to waste time (teachers have to constantly spend time to wake you up during every single lesson)
Wincoln, for ensuring the cleanliness of the classroom and your "什么?"
Jiayun, for your invaluable support as class monitor, and of course your Emo-ness
Xiayang, for showing off your burrowing skills
Haocheng, for your generosity in giving us sweets, and of course, for introducing us the unique HAO personality
Glen, for being the AVA rep and trying his best to stop the class from using the comp
Jindao, for your tomato smileys and the entertainments that you have provided for us
Sanyu, for changing the colour of your face whenever you are being calledThank you 4L for giving such golden opportunity for be to be your class chairman, i have learnt a lot from you, and i think i owe you a lot
Last but not least, thank you Ms Lim for being so loving, caring, responsible, understanding, thank you for the use of satire in class, such as "Tickle me elmo" and many many more... for being so naggy somtimes to drill something into us, and thank you for being stuck with us for 2 years...
Hope that you can spot the irony here... (:
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007
it has been more than 6 months since i last saw my dad. Kind of miss him. wonder if he is still working at this hour. Most probably yes...
Seeing him in 16 days' time...
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Today marks the one-month anniversary of the end of our official lesson in Sec4. i just don't know why i can remember this date so clearly. On this fateful day last month, i can still remember ms lim, with loads of sentiments, saying, "This is our last English lesson... Good luck for your exams... I am feeling sentimental...". And on this very day last month, i had my Oral Defence, and that was when exams started pouring on us one by one...
well, you may think that i may think too much, but then i am just being sentimental that is all. There is nothing wrong to be such a sentimental person. maybe i really treasure 4L'07 a lot...
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Just as i was bathing, srubbing myself this evening, i found a sore spot on my chest. That is exactly where chingto had pinched me yessterday (his final gift for me on the very last day of high school?). Well, he pinched me just because i have patted him deliberately with a huge amount of force on his back, just like that... I can still remember the pain that he inflicted on me after he pinched me, it was damn painful (i swear that this is the most painful amongst all his previous pinches). up til now, the souring pain is still there, somemore there is still a bright red mark on it!
I believe the wound will heal soon, but with the healing of the wound, it signifies the ending of the freedom of being in a boy school, the liberty of saying anything and doing anything we like, like bonding each other, daopok-ing each other, getting changed together openly in classrooms or even in basketball court... next year, we will not get the chance to do all these, and for chingto, he cant pinch my nipxxx anymore, if he does that, girls will surely stare at us with bulging eyes...
Thinking back, i just find that we are often being manipulated by the things around us. Here, at this moment, i reminisce about the all-boy environment i have had in these four years, but ironically, i actually dreaded the all-boy environment when i first stepped into Hwachong, and even dreaded it at times this year, when i was already sec4. Why did i not treasure this all-boy environment where i have 4 full years to do so?
I realise now that the past 4 years are the only 4 years in my entire life that i have being in an all-boy environment. Few more days later, i will never be able to experience it anymore.
Friday, October 26, 2007
of our high school life today. some of us feel so sentimental that we have been exceptionally quiet over these few days. I can observe that ee hong is one of them. He is definitely one of the more cheerful people in class, but he is so quiet these few days.
I have many things which i want to say now, my thoughts, my feelings, my fond memories of 4L... but writing them down will invoke the deepest and weakest emotion of myself, and i don't think i am strong enough to control them. All i want to say here, at this very moment, is that:
i miss you 4L
and i will miss you for as long as my life allows me to
In fact, i have already been missing you...
男子汉不能流泪，不能哭...!!!
This is the song which i was supposed to sing in Ortus Nite, sing for 4L and take this oppotunity to say a formal "goodbye" to 4L. but due to some reasons, i was not selected. I can confidently say that if i were selected, my performance will be definitely better than some of the contestants on that night. But too bad, i was still not selected... anw, do enjoy
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Many significant events have taken place today, the giving out of result slips, ortus night, my convo with Ms Lim... by the way, linky underestimated me, he thought that i got 1.5 (see the post he wrote), but in reality, i got 1.22. Despite the good results, i was too numbed by certain emotional thoughts in my confused mind.
Before i pen down today's feelings, i must clarify that the previous post was written by LINKY CHENG, that T-man, who had just used my account in class when i was out, obviously doing it without my permission. Though he wrote a lot of crap in that post, he had captured one very significant thing: i had a conversation with Ms Lim. In that particular conversation, i had gotten some very inspiring advice from Ms Lim, wana know what? allow me express my current feelings first, before telling you the content of the conversation next time...
好的东西过后一定会带来一份空虚，而空虚过后就会有一段新的开始，旅程开始后迎来艰难的过程，在艰难历程的尽头就是好的东西。而好的东西过后。。。
就这样的，每一件事接一联二地发生，给我们带来喜、悲、愁、乐，怒、恨、哀、憎。人生总会经过这一种无数次的循环，而这种循环只会在你死的那一刻才会停止、休息、结束。
黑夜过去会迎来新的阳光，生命结束后总会带来新的生命。
世界万物就这样不断的围绕着这个规律生存，很多人都在为金钱、名誉、权力而盲目地奋斗。当他们老去时，才懂得那一点点生存的意义，带着那一点点感慨而离去。
有些人，却从小就开始寻找人生的意义。但是他们找到了人生的意义后又会怎样？他们还不是要按照以上所提到的循环规律去生存？品尝到找到人生意义后所带来的愉悦后还不是要面对其他事情所带来的悲哀？我们还不是要面对死亡？
到底人活在世上的意义是什么？怎样才算活的有意义？
Hi Im Zhibin
15:59Actually Im not =). Zb has just left his blogger account vulnerable to my fingers while he went to chat wif Ms lim. HAHAHA ; )
Now I shall write what he has always wanted to say to the world XD.
Im dam sick now... and dam emo.. my MSG only 1.5.. I used to have 1.0 for every term... =(
But anyway, Im actually dam good in soccer la, cuz I am as fast as lightning as strong as thunder and Im also dam pro in basketball --- look out for my unmissable 3 pointers!!! Swimming too! But actually not really swimming itself, but when I wear my trunks, I can flex my apts and my pacs!! WOO I roxxxx
Later Im going to show off my talent in Ortus Night and everyone would be stunned by my melodious singing =D. I ownx ALL!!!
XIANZBBB
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
two and a half hours of slacking...
19:35I feel a bit guilty today, of being very lackadaisical during chinese lessons. From 11 to 1.30, we were supposed to be studiously reading the stack of Chinese model essays Mdm Huang gave us, but all of us plunged into our very own world of slacking instead. Some played PSP, Nintendo DS, some played poker cards, some were sleeping, some were even chasing with each other in class (haha), and i was listening to music, chatting with my BoBo and dozing off once in a while... This lackadaisical atmosphere reminds me of WANG (ex-chinese teacher who had just gone to Thailand 3 months ago, 不知道她在泰国还好吗? lol).
This is the reason why I thought of WANG at that very moment:
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
a meaningful day
21:05It was quite a meaningful day today (except for the Chinese lessons we had). Had a meaningful discussion with Mr Jason Wong and 3 other students about entrepreneurial mindset, hope that the discussion will help Jason Wong in his doctorate :). Then, went club with Tag and did some casual readings there. After that, we had a very engaging and thought-provoking discussion on, erm..., basically certain major issues in life, like love, friendship, character and etc. The people who had overheard our conversation must be quite surprised by the things that we discussed, i think...maybe a bit too mature for our age? Anyway, the discussion was good, both of us have gained something out of it, something really meaningful and enlightening...
3 more pathetic days together as 4L......
Monday, October 22, 2007
Just a difference of 0.02
20:02I was utterly disappoited after knowing that the crtieria for OSA has been lowered down to msg of 1.20 or below. This means that my chance of getting OSA is GONE.
I feel disappointed not because of the unexpected change in the critieria, it is just that the change in the criteria means that i will never be able to get any award in my entire sec sch life. To be frank, the award does not mean very much to me, but getting the award might mean a lot of things to my parents. I just want to get the award for my parents, for them. They have spent so much time and effort on me, and i just want to see the smile and contentment on their faces when they see me getting the award, but now... everything is gone...
Well, there is no one to be blamed for this, except myself. Who ask me to be so slack and so lack of self-discipline in the first 9 months of the year?
by the way, 4 days more to the end of my high school life... anw, let's listen to Muse's Our time is running out...
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Our culture
08:06Just as i opened up my eyes this morning, i realised that i was humming Coldplay's "Swallowed in the Sea". Don't know why, this links me to Lizacwai, who has just formed a band and performed in our Batch Dinner. Again, with certain unknown reasons, thinking of Lizacwai makes me think of one article that i read yesterday, about the development of Chinese Music.
Frankly speaking, i feel that Chinese music is really on a decline, like what *小虫 in the article has said, "Chinese artistes now are too over-packaged". Their fame and popularity base on the packaging instead of their talents and music. This, to me, is a very sad thing.
Okay, back to Lizacwai. With Battle of Bands, i saw Iype, JonSoh, Darrell Leong, Lizacwai and many others started forming their own bands. And the songs the bands play (or they long to play) are just those they feel appealing to their ears, and that's it. I mean, (don't know why i am so serious about music) music is a form of art, it should not just be solely for entertainment. Music is a form of expression, the purpose of establishing a band is to convey certain messages that you want to convey to your audience, basically to express your views and feelings. And your band is the platform for your expression, not for entertainment as its sole purpose, not to also use other bands' music to impress the audience. A band without its very own music will never be called as a band.
There is always a very weird feeling when i see Chinese bands performing English songs. This is because the music is created by the angmoks. It is meant for angmoks to perform, not us Chinese, because for the very obvious reaon, we have different skin, hair, eye colours and cultures, the feel Chinese bands present is just not right when they perform songs from English bands. That is why i think Chinese bands should start establishing our own styles, writing our own music and presenting them to the world. We should not feel belittled by Western cultures because we Chinese have a very enriched and deep culture too. Why do Chinese bands have to always perform songs written by westerners where we too can write our own songs and create our own styles? Just to quote from 小虫,"我把*数来宝和黑人的Beatbox结合，我要告诉老外，你偷我们的东西，这是我们祖先早就有的，告诉我们华人孩子，你也不需要委曲求全，这本来就是我们的东西".
Maybe what Chinese bands should do is to perform our music with Chinese musical instruments (of course not the Chinese orchestra type la). Well, you may laugh at this idea now, the angmoks might be intrigued by this idea and new style of music, who knows?
*小虫: He is the famous Chinese 创作人, has been given the name "音乐教父" for his musical talents
*数来宝: 曲艺的一种。流行于北方各地。一人或两人说唱。用竹板或系以铜铃的牛髀骨打拍
Saturday, October 20, 2007
My blog
20:10This is my second blog (this is because i forgot the password and url for my first blog :P), and the purpose of writing this blog is to express every single one of my emotions into this blog, so that i don't have to keep them all inside my heart. More importantly, this blog serves as a platform for me to explore the meaning of life, disucss issues on Life, Happiness, Fame, Money, Power and Friendship.