8th nov to 23rd nov, 16 solid days, 16 days of stress, intensity and adversity, it's like the worst time of my life so far, with every moment doing everything that i detest. but the good thing is that, i persisted on, though there were times when i went out of focus, it was fortunate that i could still pick myself up and continue to trudge on. now that everything's over, i still cannot feel the feeling of 'all hells break loose' yet, instead, i am having a withdrawing effect, still in a semi-exam-state due to the strong inertia.

and i think i have no time to dwell on the post-exam mood now because i am leaving sg tmr morning. i'll miss the highly-anticipated prom and all the class gatherings (at least many of them). that's because i have to rush back to china for my expiring driving test which i started 2 years ago. and after that, i have to tidy up all the messy stuff back home in China which have accumulated over the years, that's why i have no choice but to skip the prom. it's a bit sad, but it's good enough to have the 2 years of memories, in fact 6 years, with me forever etched in my mind.

so, good luck to those who are still struggling with their As and for those who have already finished it, please do enjoy your freedom and do something meaningful. to all my friends out there, especially those close ones, thank you for everything that you've done for me, i really appreciate them. THANK YOU! and you know who you are ;)

it's comforting that most of my exams are over, just 2 more ahead. but this is just a tiny comforting notion which is belittled by my disappointment of my own performance. econs was really a blow today. the moment that i finished reading the question, i knew that it's gonna be very tough. and it was true indeed. it was definitely not my top form during that 2hr and 15min, and that's why i am feeling quite disappointed as i knew that i could have done better if i was able to switch to a better form.

anw, what's written here is just a way of mine to vent some of my feelings. there is no point feeling sad over this now since it's already over. hope that i'll feel better tmr and could find some energy in preparing for the last 2 papers. i think i have to re-adjust my expectations for this exam after so many tumultuous papers and weird questions. oh well, life doesnt end at A levels, As are just a small fry when compared to other more important things in life ahead. i think i'll be pretty prepared for what is going to come in March 2010, but nevertheless, i will still do my best for the remaining two

oh well, no time to lament after the test as it was another 4 hours of gruelling mugging for our beloved international history from 10.30 to 1.40. thk that's the worse mugging experience i've had so far. just imagine, have been lacking sleep these few days and waking up at 4+ this morning and the brain never stopped spinning, and had to increase to its top speed from 8 to 11, and now had to block off all the negative feelings about the chem paper and concentrate on the boring and monotonous history notes, and to fight against extreme fatigue and other temptations, it's really tough. tough. but 9 or so of us managed to pull through...

after taking a short nap 3 to 4 minutes before the history test at 2, i'm forced to resume to my exam mode again and the moment i flipped the paper and saw that the sbq was based on a totally unfamiliar topic, there were mixed feelings. first was, ahha, some interesting stuff. the second was, oh well don't needa moan, i have the advantage this time round since i didnt prepare much for sbq (and i'm sure most of us didnt know what is this Rio Summit was about), i took this as a reward since i'm still on the same leverage ground as others despite my indolence. so off we go and sit through another 3 hours of gruesome hours, trying to recall the limited stuff that we've learnt and thking of how to own the 3 so-unfamiliar questions that i've chosen. and oh well once again, we've gone through it. and now, gone with history (history as history itself, history as the subject, history as getting a decent grade for it...)

during dinner tonight, i felt so very hungry (because i only consumed a little breakfast and a small dish of cai fan as i asked to 减饭 several times lest i should feel sleepy and affect my history mugging) and i gobbled the food down the throat. was feeling a bit uneasy during dinner and the feeling intensified when i was bathing just now. then when i came out from my bath, i suddenly had this convulsion and then, the food just burst out of my mouth, from inside out... after a few rounds of waterfall, i felt better. much better and energised.

and here i am, penning down the happenings of this memorable day. flashing back, it was both exciting and miserable, which makes my Alvl memory more memorable.. haha. and now, i've got to start taking out my maths notes.

oh no, don't whine, everything will be fine..

大伯，走好