Searching for someone who can lie down with me on a beach, underneath the blinking stars, and just talk for the whole night...
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It's the count-down to the most exciting moment of my life (thus far). Though it has already been started since like 23th Nov 2009, the last A level paper of mine, thk the excitement will only start to build up from tomorrow onwards. 5 more days left and i can foresee that the excitement will mount up each day and reach a climax on that very moment..There is a mixture of feelings. I tend to (or attempt to) ignore the fact that the day is near so as to maintain my emotional calmness, the tranquility is always perturbed by overwhelming curiosity, excitement and anxiousness. Though people always say that everything's been settled, there is no point pondering over it, worrying about it, geting excited by it and etc.. it is really too hard to dismiss the fact that It is coming no matter how confident you are of your results. I believe 100% of the students receiving their results will get emotionally-affected in someway or another and to various extents. For me, I've kind of been anticipating to know my results (no matter how bad it is) because i am just too curious to find out. 3 months of waiting is a long time, but it can also be short, seeing how it just passed us so quickly. but no matter what, our results gotta be known. For those who have done well, treat your results as a bonus to your hard work; for those who did not rise up to their expectations, treat it as a memorable experience of your life, get over it and seize the upcoming opportunities that are available so as to redeem your loss..I certainly hope that i will get some bonuses for myself. But if harsh reality really smacks right onto my face, i also hope that i am mature enough to take things lightly. Reasons being: One, i did not work as hard as many others who consistently did their work and spent much more effort and time than i have which means i do not deserve to get as good results as theirs. Two, i believe there are always alternatives to reach my goals (although they are longer routes than those with shinier certificates), they are by no means unattainable, maybe just needa make more efforts that's all. Three, 塞翁失马，焉知非福, you cant make an absolute conclusion/judgement of your results, having good results doesn't necessarily mean one will lead a good life and vice versa. so... hope the results will be out on fri, so that i am able to ponder over my roads ahead/ make solid decisions with the choices given to me..
Thursday, February 18, 2010
it's another one of the moments...just sent my parents to airport and from tmr onwards, i'll be totally independent.. This is somewhat different from previous times, as previous times was like my mum going back for holidays and would stay with us in sg most of the time in the year. this time round, things turned the other way as she only comes to sg to visit us a few times in a year..it's a bit sad to realise that maybe tmr will mark the day of me detaching myself away from the arms of my parents, like quite completely. and the days of which my parents are always around me whenever i need them are becoming history.. it's a bit daunting and uneasy to think of this, i feel that i am a bit caught off-guard by this too. But i'm already very fortunate when compared to many others whose parents just dumped them in a foreign land since young and left them to grope and explore the various survival ways on their own...and so very randomly, as i'm typing this post and surfing in fb, i suddenly miss my school days...