Searching for someone who can lie down with me on a beach, underneath the blinking stars, and just talk for the whole night...
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realized that i have chatted 2 hour of my precious block-test-revision-time away with my primary school friend, whom i have never seen for almost five years, and most likely won't see him in the next 5 years or so because he has been sent back to China by his dad when he was in Sec 2...
i feel so old talking to him because all the things that we did seemed so far away now... also, it reminded me of another one of my primary school friend, whom i have never seen for more than 6 years. he is also now in China i guess, as he went back to China when he was Primary 5... the reason why he did not come back was because he got himself paralysed accidentally in a soccer game when he was having holiday in China, and so unable to come back... so all it left is the fond memories that i had with him during our Pr 5 camp...
guess it was really a nice chat la, it was worth sacrificing my 2 precious hour on these kind of reminiscence because we do not live for tests and exams, it is memories that make life meaningful...
Friday, June 20, 2008
when i was a baby, i've learned how to eat, smile, cry, laugh and shit.
when i was a toddler, i've learned how to control my bladder and sorts.
when i was a kid, i've learned how to take care of my own well-being.
when i was in Kindergarten, i've learned how to manage my school bag and books.
when i was in Primary One, i've learned how to make fun of or bully girls.
when i was in Primary Three, i've learned how to manage a wallet.
when i was in Primary Four, i've learned how to mug.
when i was in Primary Five, i've learned how to slack.
when i was in Primary Six, i've learned that bgr hurts.
when i was in Sec One, i've learned not every student in Chinese High is as smart as
what i think (i thought all of them will be smarter than me as my PSLE score is considered one of the lowest)
when i was in Sec Two, i've found the direction of my life.
when i was in Sec Three, i've known there is such a XXX person like SLIM in the world.
when i was in Sec Four, i've understood what is 'leadership', and found the ultimate goal of my life.
this year, i've found out that JC life is not as interesting as what i thought (schools with girls are more fun? let me take a toilet break first)
and now, after experiencing home-alones for a few times, i've learned how to manage a house and a considerable sum of money.
what's next?
i want to manage my very own money and own family.
Monday, June 9, 2008
真羡慕我的堂哥，阿洋，今天他们都靠完了地狱般的中国高考，从今天开始，他们的生活得到了360度的转变，从考完试的那一刻，他们就把堆积如山的书本一一从楼上的课室狠狠地丢到楼下；考试的试卷一一被撕成碎片。。。欢呼声随之布满全校，大家都等着去狂欢，因为，他们的字典再也没有“MUG”这个词了。。。
haiz... i am so envious. after today, they don't have to mug anymore, for the rest of their lives, because life will be damn relaxed from university onwards... Looking back to myself, though i am just few months younger than my cousin, i sill have one and a half month to go while he has already completed the most arduous stage of his life. How i wish i could be like him now, with high school completed and waiting for the forthcoming of university life. how i wish...
No matter how i wish, i still have one and a half years to go. Furthermore, i am lagging a lot in my academics, which makes everything seem so pessimistic.
how i really wish that i could clear this stage of my life (probably not with ease) with a sense of satisfaction and achievement. if not, i will never forgive myself for wasting 20 years' of my life and 20 years' of my parents' effort and time.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Feeling quite guilty these few days because i have always left my sis at home in the nights. As she doesn't like to go out at night and prefer to watch tv at home, and for me, as my parents are not around, you know, we tend to give ourselves more freedom... so i always go out at night. this means that my sis will have to stay at home alone and have dinner at home... feel quite bad la, because i feel quiet irresponsible. i should at least stay at home to keep her accompanied...
But having said so, i am going out whole day again, to Ubin for cycling... which means that i have to leave her alone at home again...
clarification: i have asked her to come ubin along few times, she is reluctant to go. so, don't blame me for abandoning her...
Thursday, June 5, 2008
it's been ages since i laughed like what i did today (which basically tells how boring my life has been :(. went to jindao's house today, whose desired intention was to clarify some doubts and prepare some notes on SEAsian history, which both of us hate and failed for the tests so far...
so i reached his house at 11.40 and started discussing about SEAsian history. after 5 mins, we wondered off to other things and never went back until 4+. In this period, we have updated each other on our life, talked quite a lot of crap, and spent most of the time playing a noob flash game... yea, flash game, which most of us only play in primary school. Don't underestimate ok? it is actually damn fun, and stylish because flash games are retro :D.
so at xia finally arrived at 4.30, after like 3 hours? this signified the most fun part of the day.we began by continue playing the flash game (lol),and we played in a tournament style... in the end, both xia and i were owned by jaydee and even have been humiliated by him as he treated us with one 鸭蛋 each... after 2 hours, we finally embarked on our hist notes. This was where all of us laughed until like siao...Southeast Asian names such as Vietnam kill dong dong (only 4L pple know this joke), Quoc Ngu (cock you), Phan Choi and many many more just came out of nowhere...........It was damn funny, all of us laughed like siao, and our laughers were prolonged by each other's funny laughters and laughing gestures and so we laughed laughed laughed, laughed until we were too tired to laugh.......
it was really a good laugh, i really miss those laughters we had when we were 4L.
Monday, June 2, 2008
time crawled at the pace of snail last two days. Why? it's because of the stupid history term paper. Thought that the miserable experiences of 4 years of HRP had already ended when i handed in my 2-month-late submission to SLIM last year, i have never expected to endure that for another 2 years. it is like wadda.......
as i have this sense of reluctance to begin or even to think about my term paper (because it always reminds me of all the bad experiences i have encountered in the last 4 years doing history research papers),i did not start my paper promptly even though i was given more than a term to prepare it, nor did i do it regularly (it's like duh...). So it is another typical last minute work again.
I have finally started writing my first sentence two days before the deadline, which is two days ago, and forced my heart and soul and 48 hours of my life into doing this term paper. the result was miserable and painstaking. Being engulfed in Southeast Asian notes and texts all the time, and due to the overflowing of info and over-exertion on my body and mind, i found myself to be surrounded my stars at times... but nevertheless, i have managed to complete it by this morning and submitted it onto teh's table this afternoon.
*SIGH OF RELIEF*
Unfortunately, as my good friend Mr Goh is more last minute than me, and more fortunate than me, who always have a friend who finishes something few minutes before him, i have no choice but to extend my help to him. and so, i sent him my term paper. After few minutes or so, instead of receiving words of thanks or whatsoever, what i received was, "eh you gg, you misinterpreted the question". Oh, what a high-anticipated words of gratitude...
anw, forget it, there is no point for me to cry over the spilt milk now. what's important now is: i am free once again. freed from term paper and everything, though the freedom is temporary,
I feel good.