Searching for someone who can lie down with me on a beach, underneath the blinking stars, and just talk for the whole night...
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it's been a week since i last blogged. quite a lot of things happened actually...
Mum went back again, and this time is for 1 entire month. and i think i have enough home-alone experiences, so it is quite ok :)
Network EXCO interview --> a screw up, but nvm :)
3-on-3 basketball competition on fri and sat --> could only get into the top 8 teams (actually quite unlucky, some teams that we played against just shot extremely well when they were playing against us ONLY, so it's like every time they made some shots, they could always score. so tyco... ) but nvm, i have won myself a set of bball jersey through lucky draw :)
Primary school outing... lol, after 5 years, we finally have one primary school outing, which was like quite amazing! haha, we promised ourselves to meet once every 5 years, didn't we? anw, the gathering was quite fun, before i reached there, some already had bowling and lunch, then we went pool, dinner, swensens and lots of talks :)
just finished a 3-day financial literacy workshop in SMU today. It was actually very enjoyable i must say. Overall, it was pretty slack, but then the things i've learnt, the smu campus experiences that i have roughly gone through and the friendship that i have made, made me feel quite reluctant to end this workshop. but then all good things come to and end, so it is ok... and i still have many opportunities to work with them (the smu undergrads cum facilitators in the near future) :)
so 3-day workshop has ended, which means that i have like 2 more days to finish my history term paper from scratch. haiz... :(
and i still have damn a lot of stuff to mug, to catch up for whatever that i have missed over the past 5 months... and then still have to prepare for Blocks... :(
how i wish i could do the things that i want and enjoy ONLY...
Saturday, May 17, 2008
GIC talk on wednesday, SAGE this morning. They have exposed so many weaknesses of myself, revealed so many things that i lack. so in conclusion, i still have so many things to work on, in terms of character, personality, capability and the ability to survive (not even to excel) in this competitive, pragmatic, taxing, demanding, changing-at-the-speed-of-light society...
good luck to me
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i realised that i have been living my life for my parents and teachers (in some sense), and of course, my wife, children and future family. What is the purpose of Mankind? to continue the survival of human species for as long as possible, maybe? since it is a collective goal, why are there still so many people advocating to work for ourselves, our future and lead our own life?
if not for my parents, teachers, wife, children and family, i would not have become what i am now and what i would have become in the future... so it is a good or bad thing?
"shrug"
Sunday, May 11, 2008
i could still remember very vividly what i had said when i first made my self-introduction to my classmates in Sec 1. As our form teacher was the "famous" Wang wanyi, our Chinese teacher, we had to introduce ourselves in chinese. Here it went: 我是冼智彬, 来自史丹福小学,我的爱好是望着窗外发呆。somehow, the class laughed at my last comment, i was half-puzzled and half-amused...
then today, just i was about to shower and walked past this particular windy window, i couldn't resist myself but to lean against myself against the window and enjoy the night scene with the sooting breeze... it just felt so good to look out of the window, while you are listening to Secret Garden, stare into the night, lost in deep contemplation about some random stuff, and enjoy the breeze at the same time. last but not least, feel your body getting relaxed......
i really did not want to end such an enjoyable moment, but as i had to bathe and do my history presentation, i had to reluctantly leave that pleasurable place. what a sad thing.~为什么每次精心设计的对白都用不上？
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
嗨... 上一轮林住學下点樣用密碼保護下D blogposts, 因爲我吾想被某D人睇到，吾想距地睇到我既内心世界同埋我對某某野既一D吾想被距地知既林法。點知，眼睛一眨，甘多個星期已經過去了，中未有任何進展。。。 但今日吾知點解，突發奇想，林到用白話黎blog。。 哈哈，D招真係絕啊！我林睇我blog既人，睇懂我以上寫既野的人寥寥無幾，就算睇得明，距地至多睇明三成！呵呵！！！
好啦，係時候寫低今日既野啦。今日其實我心情吾係甘好，雖然我既化學終于打破左吾合格既詛咒，拿到個B。本來目標係合格就得啦，拿到個B本來係大快人心既事來既。。但係我一D都吾開心，可能因爲某某人靜係溫習左1粒鈡多D就靠到比我高既成績挂，而我花了幾多既努力挂，得到比距低既成績真係有D吾憤得。世界真係有D吾公平，但點都好，既然好朋友，我都為距感到高興。
可能心情吾好並非因爲D件事甘簡單。正如王卓所講，最近醒日好鬱悶，難道係是青春期既症狀嗎？或者係挂。。男女關係個D野啦，學業上個D野啦，朋友關係個D野啦，憂慮前途個D野啦，等等，等等。。。可能又或者係我地D個階段既人係特別受外界影響的，動不動就為小小事，譬如人地一個小小既動作，一句很隨意既話，我地都理解成好深奧既野。林下林下，就越覺得煩惱，越覺得鬱悶，久而久之，個人特別容易覺得空虛，寂寞，鬱悶，煩惱，沉重。。。
好了，现在就让我用回华文吧。。。刚刚听了很久没听过的梁祝，要知道，这首经典情歌是我的最爱，隔了这么久今天突然一听，感觉真爽。那旋律如此的动人，感动，仿佛把我们带到了梁山伯与祝英台热恋的期间以及他们悲惨的爱情结局。。。听完这首歌曲后，抒发了心里的一些郁闷，感觉好些了，但歌曲悲哀的音调和梁祝伤心的结局难免让人感到一丝沧桑。。。
so this is the song(violin version): 梁山伯与祝英台 （Butterfly Lovers):
Monday, May 5, 2008
Had a new revelation this morning, mainly triggerred by Mrs Tham Bengbeng's blast early in the morning before flag raising and my chem test.
i haven't been enjoying school since the end of Orientation.
There are mainly two reasons for it.
One is ... (which is not convenient to reveal here).
The other one (which i finally realised today) is that failures make my school day suck.
Only if my school is flooded with As, i think i would have been a lot happier.
So...
Sunday, May 4, 2008
haiz.. its chem lecture test tomorrow, think i am going to gg again... just as i have no more mood for revision, i came acorss this most interesting video that i have ever seen in youtube. Seriously, i think it is one of the most hilarious videos i have seen so far. However, it is only suitable for matured teenagers, for those innocent souls, please don't try clicking it, you will definitely REGRET!!!
so here is the video:
"The Fastest Man In The World!"
bet you have watched it several times before reading this message. LOL. i watched it 3 times before i really understood the underlying message of the video, it is really damn funny...
please don't think that i am perverted or whatsoever hor, i didn't purposely search for these kind of videos on youtube. let me share with you how i came across this:
1. reading some online info about Chris Paul, my current basketball idol
2. clicked on a youtube link about a Guinnese World Record set by him (which is a fake one)
3. then clicked on a link which shows a Guinnese world record for a rapper rapping out 849 syllables in 60 secs
4. then clicked on "The Best Guinnese World Record" on the side links
5. then clicked on a video featuring Powell's world record 100m run at 9.77 in 2005
6. then clicked on another video featuring Powell (again) on his current record 100m run at 9.74
7. then finally clicked on the very intersting video above...
so it was just a pure coincidence for me to come across this video, don't think that i am dirty-minded and search for these kind of video.
i think only japanese have the creativity to come up with this kind of stupid videos...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
也许我不能成为贵族，但是可以成为贵族的祖先。