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underneath the stars
I'll wait for you - the meaning of life.


Searching for someone who can lie down with me on a beach, underneath the blinking stars, and just talk for the whole night...

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Thursday, January 31, 2008
sense of elation
20:51

went to play basketball after school in spite of all the pressure of so many people mugging at the CT bench. though it was a very usual basketball game with the usual bball enthusiasts, the climax only came after the game...

after the game, when we all were tired, sweaty and hot, i had a strong urge to test my jump at the court closest to the exit, because that is where the lowest basket rim is located (a few cm lower than the rest of the rims? O.o) . So i quickly flung down my bag, put down my wallet and handphone, distant myself a few feet from the rim, stared at the rim intently and concentrated... one two three, compress and release. focusing on the rim, i could feel that i m up in the air, then i saw and felt my fingers touching the rim FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE (the metallic rim is so solid!!!), without any help from a chair or whatsoever. Just jump from the ground level!!! i can finally touch the rim after 4 long years. i feel damn happy.

though the basket rim is the lowest amongst all the rims in the courts, i still feel a strong sense of achievement. i believe i still can jump higher in the up coming years.

will my dream come true?


Wednesday, January 30, 2008
23:43

was looking through the orientation pics and the pics that we have taken with our seniors on our first senior-meet-junior and the pics of campfire night... and of course, our fantastic video of the campire night...... what had triggered were those memories of genuine joy during orientation games, interactions, dances, songs, and high moments of campfire night.

duno why, a strong sense of sentiments has suddenly surged through my whole body and mind. i feel quite sentimental as if something has left me, like what i normally feel when i m leaving something or somebody, for example 4L. of course, the feeling this time round is not that intense as what i had on the last day of sch last year, but then, feeling sentimental at this very moment is quite an unexpected thing ..............

maybe it is because that as the intensity of college life is becoming greater and greater, and the

happiness and joy we once enjoyed during orientation and first 3 weeks of sch are slowly fading away, they might be permanently engraved in our memories and would never come back again... that's why the sentimental feel...


(shit, still have chem tut 80% undone........ hist test tmr........... econ project havent started........... and and, being bluntly rejected by guitar for the 3rd time..........)




Sunday, January 27, 2008
a random dream
21:24

had a strange dream the other day. The dream began with my friend and i talking to a policeman. It was at night, and he was trying to confiscate our handphones because most of the people's handphones had been handed in to them alrady. As to why he wanted to confiscate all of the civilians' phones, we were still left uninformed. But then, my friend and i were very obedient, we just handed him our handphones...

Then we went home and turned in. In the middle of the night, we were awoken by a commotion outside. Out of curiosity, we sneaked out of the house, trying to see what was happening. Not far away from our house, there was a large crowd hovering over the policeman that we had met earlier on. When we reached there, he was saying, "attention attention, this is a very important announcement". After repeating this line for several times, the crowd quietened down, and the atmosphere became very solemn. Just as the silence was getting intolerable, he started speaking again, with much slower speed, "We have received an emergency call from xxx (which i forgot where), and we are informed that the Australian plate and the Eurasian plate are going to converge tomorrow, and as Singapore is lying on the line of convergeance, so...." I could not help but was too shock to continue absorbing the rest of the announcement. Instinctively, i fished my handphone out so that i could inform my parents and friends about this shocking news, but to my horror, i realized that my phone had been confiscated. i got panicked and was suddenly waken up by my mum..........................

it was such a random and strange dream. it is good that my mum had waken me up lest i had to suffer whatever that was going to happen. However, it is not so good because the excitement of the dream ended too abruptly.


Monday, January 21, 2008
20:41

one of the good things for having girls in your class is that girls are relatively more obedient, more enthu, and easier to be led than guys. things are going on very smoothly for everything in my class, the preparation for chinese year, the collection of class funds, the cultivation of a good class atmosphere... everything seems so fine.

For the CNY preparation, we only had 2 sessions of discussion and that the ball has already started rolling, everyone, if not 99% of the class, is being involved in one way or another, and that plans are being concretized. thinking back, this is really a stark contrast to what i had when we were preparing for class performance last year. some pple were just not bothered by it or they were more concerned with themselves, which eventually had made things very difficult (maybe it is because of my poor leadership skills as well). Nevertheless, our class performance still turned out well, thx for the sacrifices made by everyone in 4L :D

But then i am like thinking: now with the addition of girls in the class, things go on at a relatively smoother pace. i guess it is the balance between boy and girl, 阴 and 阳, the equilibrium reached where the strengths and weaknesses of male and female compliment each other which make everything so smooth... (for now, duno if it is still like that in the future). anw, a society will not be complete if we lack either one of the genders...





(PS: i don't mean that i don't like being in a boy sch, pls dun misinterpret. in fact, i still love the all boy environment very much, though the 4 years in high school is kind of like a flawed microcosm of society, it was kind of like a semi-sheltered place for us from all the evils of human nature that we are going to face in the future...)


Saturday, January 19, 2008
20:46

the 30 mins in the high sch library yesterday was such a temporary relief for me, it was indeed a temporary shelter which kept me from the artificialities of human nature...


but i think time will boil them down.





soon.


Wednesday, January 16, 2008
20:17

it's the 3rd week of JC life and 1st week of proper lesson. JC life is meaningless without slacking and playing. That is what i can sum up from my short experience.

Lessons are really boring, especially with the lecture system. As there are few hundreds students attending lectures together, i feel it is rather distracting. firstly, more people means more murmuring and movements, which means harder for me to concentrate... secondly, the overwhelming number of students in the lecture provides a sense of liberty for me to lose myself in the wanderland of daydreams, cos the chance of the lecturer catching me not paying attention is like zero?... thirdly, i feel very sian and sleepy whenever i see the lecturers or hear his/her voices... So in conclusion, i didn't learn much from the lessons so far...

and i can already feel the pressure in hwachong right now... everyone hates muggers in hwachong, but when it comes to tutorials and homework, most of my friends finish them earlier than me, and most of them know how to do the questions which i do not know, which i find it rather puzzling... which is also why i feel quite pressurising...

anw, i will definitely find my way through somehow... hope that i can on fire when the time comes...


Sunday, January 13, 2008
sad
20:58

the 1 week + 3 days orientation is OVER. OVer. over.... orientation was so fun, i actually looked forward to school for the first time in N years. Another thing is that i have lost track of the time since Orientation (like i always forget which day is today, monday, tuesday or wedsday?) and this will only happen to me when i am having a long holiday... this shows how obsessed i am in the orientation
Our OGL: Eddy


The unofficial assisstant OGL: guojie


Having fun with Fleming's Left Hand Rule (OG39)


Photo in the hall (OG39)


Jumpstart campfire

Photo with CT seniors after campfire (08S65)


08S65 and our Flag


Photo with our senior class (08S65)



Tuesday, January 8, 2008
OG39
22:57

Five days isn't long, nor is it short. In this span of time, from the awkward and terrible ice-breaking games that we had, to the OG gatherings that we held, OG 39 has really become a very united group. Though there are still personal barriers amongst the group members, i thk it is the best team spirit that we can achieve already, within this limited time. It is really amazing how united we are, as a team, a just five-day old team...

Anyway, though Eddy is not a perfect leader, i thk he rock. yea, rock. Our 39 chear-dance rock too...


Saturday, January 5, 2008
21:53

raist: ok, i will blog then...

Just one day after my return to singapore, i was forced to wake up at 6 and get back to school again. What was awaiting me then were hours of boring and meaningless lectures and briefings, but fortunately, the day was saved by the songs, cheers, dances and games... However, orientation is super taxing, i am always exhausted whenever i step into the house... I just feel very lethargic, i thk that is because i still cannot get used to the humid weather here, yet...

Anyway, orientation is really very enjoyable, it is one of the very few times that i feel so relaxed during school days. No lessons, no hw, no restrictions, no teachers, no worries... lectures? no, kick, just doze off whenver we like. Guys, do immerse yourself in orientation and enjoy next week fully, things will never be the same after orientation :)

And i just read a quote in Tag's Chicken Soup today by Kaleel Jamison:

Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

This analogy is somewhat interesting, but how true is it? i don't know, i am just not very convinced by it.


Tuesday, January 1, 2008
2008
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