last official day of school, it is sad that i didnt get the level of euphoria that i expected. on the contrary, i felt quite sian when school ended. the feeling also affected me in my bball game later on in which i played the worst basketball in my JC life. what a sad thing. what a bad way to end the official last day of school...
Prelims and A lvl are coming, i am running out of words to describe my feelings now...
was thiinking of writing a long and meaningful post to commemorate my last day of being 10+ years old as in less than one hour's time, my age will begin with a different number. it's both good and bad for me, for i am stepping into a new stage of my life but at the same time, there is an inevitable sense of reluctance to depart from days of being 10+ years old. but as i am sitting here right now, i thk it's hard to express all my sentiments here as they are really complicated so i have decided to make a short commeration instead.
The first ten years of my life was devoted to my motherland while my 2nd-ten-year was devoted to singapore. where will i spend my next 10 years? i don't know. but one thing i know, the next ten years will be more challenging than the previous two. considering that i am already struggling extremely hard now due to Alevel, often to the point getting defeated by it, life will be harder after As as the real 'life' only commences after Alvl as many of my adult friends told me. But that i am not so worried about because i am very confident that once i have crossed this hurdle, i'll be fine. studying things which do not interest me at all is really miserable. but i have endured it for almost 6 years already, why not few months more? once i get into a course of my interest next year, i'll be able to enjoy learning for the first time and i'll be able to unleash the potential inside me. and i'm sure, i will be able to shine brighter than now. i have no doubt in this but this can only come true if i could overcome this upcoming hurdle. whether i can do it or not depends whether i want to make it happen. it really needs a lot of discipline and focus, and of course a healthy physical well-being and a good form during exam period. i think i can do it because i always believe that 2 is my lucky number.
wish me luck
不知怎么的，本来是难得的长假，应该好好地珍惜，以最有意义的方式和最愉悦的心情去度过的，但我反而觉得闷闷不乐。好久没有心情连续低落好几天了, 感觉既有点收悉又有点陌生，收悉那无从是好的感觉，但又陌生在不知怎么克服它。
在此，我真的很郑重很诚恳地说（我不是在说谎，请你就相信我这一次），我真希望快点上学。希望学校的喧哗能埋没我这几天的郁闷。。。
it's is a memorable day today. because today is 30 days away from prelims and 100 days away from As.
tmr will be a memorable day for me as well. currently feeling stressed about tmr...
