9 more days to As and still have lots to consolidate. one of the things that i learnt from A level is the real meaning of 力不从心。when we are at this stage, there are times that when you really wana mug, but your motivation is thwarted by the limitations of your body and mind. also, there is this feeling that no matter how hard we work now, it's never going to be sufficient for Alvl... think many of you will share the same sentiment as me, sometimes, when you pushed yourself too much and overworked, it just backfired...
but, no matter what, we still have to persevere for 3 more weeks. yeah, 3 more weeks only, everything will be fine.
grad day yesterday, kinda not as exhilarating or emotional as what i expected. the whole ceremony was pretty monotonous, except for one or few sparks when some interesting class montage was shown (namely ours and s6k's, haha), and of course, the song singing session wasnt bad too.
half-way through the ceremony, i felt so bored that jay (jingyu) and i decided to go down and have a night-walk (sorry for those cca leaders that i've missed, haha) . we went to the field (yes, just two of us alone, in pitch darkness.. it sounds a bit gay, but it was quite enjoyable) and had a nice short chat with my 小 jay jay. then we proceeded to the admin office (randomly walking) and was joined by eehong.. then we decided to crashed the apollo's ceremony. Just when we stepped foot onto the audi, it was obvious that the atmosphere there was much better than ours.. thk that's because the aircon there was much cooler... after a while, we went back and went on with our ceremony...
thk the most emotional part of the ceremony was when i was singing the chinese high school song. the first sentence already triggered my memory of the time when i first learnt the song. i remember very vividly that the music teacher was mr goh, an ex-chinese high boy and was also a physics teacher then. he was a very strict teacher, but nice, and he always wanted us to line the chairs properly (each on the exact tile) before every lesson and stacked them up after every lesson. i also rmb very vividly that our first music test was on the singing of our sch song, which was the one we sang ytd. the class was divided into groups of 3 and each group had to sing the song in tune and the lyrics must be right. and interestingly, i was in the same group as xiayang and xuhaocheng, one of the few weirdo/funny people in class then. as you know, both of them can sing for nuts, hao even refused to open his mouth during the test, all he produced was some mumbling... So, not surprisingly, the music test was actually my own test with only myself singing most of the time...
fast forward back to the ceremony, six years of my life was gone in a flash. but towards the end of this journey, time seems to be crawling like a snail in this final lap. i just didnt have a sense of conclusion during ytd's graduation ceremony. it just don't feel right where you still have the-most-important-exam-in-your-life awaiting for you , teasing at your state of mugging misery. to tell you a little secret, my ever so loving CT, mrs ong told me something inspiring when i was receiving the hwachong bear from her on stage. as to what she said, i shall keep it confidential. though i doubt what she said will come true, but i really appreciate her words. think those are the words which i will still rmb many many years later.
ok, reflection complete. must thank mell tan for making such a fantastic class montage for our class. let's give her a round of applause, she deserves it:
as i was doing one of the recent daily routines (almost daily), which was to open the post-prelim schedule and check out the coming time tables, i was quite in shock when i saw that we have come quite far to this stage of post-prelim schedule. as in when i saw the very first item on the schedule, it was the CCA cert briefing on 30th sept, one day immediately after chem mcq, i felt that it was only a few days ago that i attended the briefing and sneaked out to play tennis with wz and ma... it really feels like it was just few days ago...
but no... we have already covered most of the post-prelim schedule and the post-prelim timetable is ending very soon. how fast time flies. how unaware we are that we allow time to fly past us like that? i thk this is one of the memorable times (no matter it is memorably good or bad) of our lives that we need to pen down our current emotions so that when we look back next time and review what we have done, or how we have felt during this crucial period before the As, at least we have all these words as witnesses to our emotional change during this very period. i thk it would be very interesting to read the 'witnesses' and flash back all the memorable (again, not necessarily be good memories) moments that we have experienced. it will definitely be very interesting as there are only 2 things that will follow you forever, your knowledge and your memories...
it is really sad to see that a couple of my friends have stopped their blogging activities lately due to A levels i believe? i thk it is a wrong choice they've made. i would definitely not want to have just a vague memory of full mugging and chionging practice papers for my pre-Alevel period next time when i reflect back. i want to record down some interesting things over this period which i could savour with next time.